Sorry I went MIA again. I had a little, perfect storm hit me and needed to lay low for awhile. Ever feel like that? :) If you are a #spoonie, I know you have! When and emotional upset hits me, I have to be extra careful about not over-doing-it, and practice super self care, or I'll loose even the few hours a day that I feel functional, for who knows how long. I've learned this the hard way. I've had some awesome people helping me through it, and I can't thank them enough.
This year,so far, has been funny. Every month there's been some sort of shock to my system, but with great learning and growth afterwards. When I don't fight against life and just let it be, I can see clearly how practicing forbearance leads to good stuff later. Life is going to have it's ups and downs. That's just the way it is. Weather it. Be still.
It's okay to feel br*ok*en.
And when the good times hit, appreciate it, soak it up and create lots of space inside for yourself. Space for it all. There's room.
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.
Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.